This is a subject very dear to me as I have believed for a very long time that certain individuals could hold the truth to any subject they specialized in. I tried for a very long time to read many books on healing, mediums, self-help books of many kinds to be happy, optimist, better with money, better with myself. Books that show you how to be creative, how to dream, how to pray, how to meditate, how to be the maximum of who you can be.
I've read entire rows of books at the library to be a better me and what I finally learned from all those books is that no one holds any truth. No one knows how life works. No one knows how everyone can dream or be happy. No one holds the one secret that would make all of our wishes comes true.
This is basically because there is no recipe to live life. We think as individuals that if we made it we have something to share, that we finally got the recipe. How to get thin, how to get men, how to get from A to B faster then everybody else.
But all we have is our little island. Our little corner of paradise that we may have discovered for ourselves. No matter what we do, how we put it in words and try to tell our truth to the world, that truth only applies to us. It was meant for us and made to accommodate our needs.
The best we can do is share what happened to us, how it worked for us and hope that bits of that information can bring some sparkles in someone else's life. It is important to share, not to be alone and to inspire others to find their truth and what works for them. But if there were recipes to life, we wouldn't need thousand of books on the same subject. We would only need one. That book would be the answer for everyone.
It is important for me to make that distinction because I am about to embark on a journey to get back to who I am really. Now that I have set up all the basics and put all my resistances on the table I will delve into ways for me to get better. Those ways are not a recipe for anyone to follow. They can inspire at best but will be in no way a prescription to copy for anybody else who would have resistance.
I have no idea what I am doing here. I have no plans. I haven't figured out how to get better. All I know is that I want to. I have the perseverance to pursue it and the way it will come to me will be perfectly suited to fit my needs.
In some way I am kinda happy to see that I have so much faith in this process. Having lived without faith and in anger towards everything that was light - mostly blaming them for everything that was wrong in my life and refusing to do their work while being miserable - for so long, it is refreshing.
I hope this journey can help you find your own answers but I doubt very much that the answers I will find will be yours. Maybe some of them, but probably not all of them. It is ok. We are not made from a cookie cutter mold that makes us all the same. We are different and that difference is something we should celebrate!
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