One week celebration!

Yay! I made it a whole week!!!

Being harsh with myself has the negative consequence of never allowing myself to celebrate success and dig for old failure or anticipate new ones instead.

Way to bring down the spirit of a party!

But today, no matter what, I have to say that in the last week I have seen major attunements inside me. I feel happier as a whole. More hopeful. Less angry.

I even managed to meditate for 10-20 seconds this week.

Wait for it...

That's not enough. I suck and yadda, yadda, yadda...

But honestly Harsh Judgement can't win today. My spirits are too high for him to bring me down. And since I wrote this blog on him and his posse, he kinda makes me laugh instead of scared. At least, for now. And dear Jesus Complex. I have not laughed like this in awhile. Reread it so many times that that part of me has almost become dear to me. Needs so much love and less destruction.

I know I'd like to explore meditation and why being in the silence of my being is so scary for me. But today, I'll just go :

Woohoo!

And take the time to take it in. Just accept the new well being that is flowing through my veins and try not to silence it.

I know I can be very passionate. Invested 120%  and suddenly drop something because it has lost all meaning to me. I know there is a lot I want to explore and hope I have the perseverance to continue and not sabotage this effort of mine.

Being happy and just bask in it for a little is still difficult for me. So that's what I'll do today. Keep it simple here and simple in my mind. A mind vacation so I don't over do it and smell the roses I have planted.

What is the point of all this exploration if it only stays at the level of my mind and the heart never gets a chance to live it?

See you on the other side tomorrow. Have a good one everybody!