It started when a friend of my husband asked for a message. Because I am quick to answer for a cry for help, I did it last night in the middle of the night instead of sleeping. I will need to meditate more on that, as this need to comfort and help others is not quite what it should be. I still need time to learn correctly how to put my limits as it is becoming an increasing problem if I don't learn how to listen to my needs first.
15 minutes later I had 4 pages laid down, framed with titles, detailed information on the state of the soul both emotionally and physically, the treatment laid down to come back from such a deep state of despair and all that again without a single scratch. The only thing was that from time to time I was drowsing and that they were waiting for me to come back to continue.
I have never had a diagnosis before, or anything remotely resembling that. Because of the obvious link to my new guide, I asked him afterwards if it had anything to do with him and he said no. That those entities where not the same phenomenon and that though similar in effect it was not linked. The message was catered to the person and had to sound that specific way to make the proper impression
All I can do is my best. Even though I don't doubt myself on what happened, I understand that the message only is worth anything if it talks to the person. As I have said before, I am really aware how subjective this is. I am not perfect and even though my heart is fully in it, there is so much that is way beyond my control here and I am am but an apprentice on this path, not a guide or a master.
This message, even if made for the wrong reason to become a savior, did help me make the final push and open up the gates to the other side. Open to more then for myself. I am happy that I managed to open up those gates with my heart and not my brain. "All is connected". That, I have heard from every angel, guide, God, Jesus, everyone, at all times. This reminds me how true it is. How one's needs is also the other's and that together we are in constant collaboration.
This bout of insomnia is starting to be not good though. My husband is highly concerned and looked at me with worried eyes today: "You are going to burn yourself out", he said. And it is true. I can't seem to stop.
What I need to be very careful with is that there is no off switch that works for me right now. I keep hearing things in my head all the time and this doesn't help to sleep either. I had the sudden memory of a trick I had to cut the communication before when it was too strong, use a cutter in my imagination and cut the link like it is a rope, but it is barely working. Even my husband's suggestion to use a lightsaber is not working very well yet!
I will really need to rest. I asked to have my energy lowered a bit and they did, maybe it will help.
Thank you
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