This blog tells of the path of a medium who doubted herself for way too long. It tells of her journey to come back from deep disbelief to finally embrace all that is me.

I have traveled quite a bit since I stated this blog. My train stopped at many stations, explored a lot of inner turmoil and has now sailed away from the lands of doubts and shadow. On this new found faith, I am finally ready to open my heart for what is to come.

I am a reluctant medium no more.


The journey continues here: Musings of an apprentice medium

Friday, July 15, 2011

My angel's take on messages given to strangers

I have found another resistance I have that I forgot to mention. If I do a message for someone I don't know, it will be very limited if I don't have any information about them. This led me to believe, that I might make it all up, like a mentalist, given they have enough information on someone, can make a psychic divination for them. The fact that I can't tell anything precise to them left me with a bittersweet taste in the mouth. Why would angels and guides only use what is in my own head to communicate with them. Shouldn't they know them enough to tell me what I should know?

As this issue was really bothering me a lot this morning, my angel came while I was exercising and I took a break to write the answers down.

Me: Why do I need to have informations on someone to do a message?

Angel: (talking about mediums in general) You think you are a crystal ball? The perception you have of things makes the medium experience very difficult for us. You are seemingly stuck in a snow globe and the glass is impermeable. We are talking through it and often what is coming out on the other side is deformed.

Me: Can we learn to make the layer of glass less dense?

Angel: (smiles) You want so much. But you think that the change is exterior, not interior. You have nothing to do, just open.

Me: We could eventually be without barriers?

Angel:  You felt it already when you felt me in my pure form. Again you perceive the way you want to perceive. Everyone would see something different.

Me: So how do we know what is true?

Angel: Truth has a taste of joy. It elevates you, it gives wings.

Me: But sometimes, the messages are hard on people to receive, there is resistance. No joy in receiving it.

Angel: Your inner self always knows. The storm can rage outside of you, you have waves and tsunami, you can deny from that point of view, but truth can't be touched on the surface, but inside. You need to wait for the resistance to fall, that the fight on the surface lets you a chance to absorb. What is true then finds it's home, there is no more need for proof.

Me: Can you go in more details on why, if I don't know someone, I need to know a minimum of information?

Angel: Ultimately, you don't need to know anything to connect and give the essential. There are multiple aspects to your questions. Your own self-confidence is spoiling the game here. If you are afraid it is not true, it creates a resistance that prevents you from accessing that person's universe and your inherent knowledge of everything that exists on Earth. This knowledge, everyone has it, as we are all connected and we are One, but in your head you separate things. You see yourself and a stranger and you build a wall. This wall darkens your perceptions. 

There is also the fact that those perceptions, if you didn't have the wall, are not what you want them to be. You wouldn't know any particular details about that person, not their social security number, you are not psychic! That is not the goal of this gift. It has nothing to do with it. Why would you need details, if not to reassure yourself, not to help that person. Your perceptions, on the other hand, give you access to the interior world of that person. It gives you a link to connect with what is going on inside them. The more you undo you walls and breathe with joy and contentment, instead of living in fear, the more you can have access to someone you don't know that is inviting you in their intimate world to get help.

The idea to know precise details about someone has nothing to do with helping them. If they want to give you more information it is their choice, but not what you come to do.

Me: But when I have more information, messages are more precise. Isn't it worth it for that purpose?

Angel: People who retain information to test you or because they distrust you, have that right to not unveil themselves. To force it, is not only counterproductive, but wrong. Tell yourself, that if that person has erected a wall between themselves and you, it's because the strength of a precise message is not what they are looking for at this precise moment.

There are many kind of painters. Those who paint every detail, impressionists, abstract painters. Don't judge how the message comes. It comes how it is supposed to come at that exact moment. Your responsibility is to try to stay open, not block, open your heart and let love transpire through everything you do. Anything else is of very small importance to know many details or not to make a message.

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I tried to formulate many other questions that all came back to one answer: you are not a crystal ball. So I guess this is my lesson for the day. 

On the other hand, I am deeply grateful how easy that connection was this morning. No comment on the fact that I basically cursed them and hated them or anything. As if my anger was only the surface of my storm and they knew they just had to wait for it to calm down so I could be available again. This is so humbling in learning how to forgive anger and hate. I can't even start to begin to understand how they do it. No need for vengeance or making me pay for not believing, just pure, unconditional love. Gives something to aspire to!

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