Sleepless in energies

Energies have climbed up for three days, then stopped without me even noticing. Only did I realize late at night yesterday that it had stopped for good. I feel I have reached a middle plateau and that I need to rest here for awhile. My husband's concern has alarmed me a little, as I have barely slept anything for the last three days and I feel I am hooked on some kind of speed that can't let me sleep. It much  resembles the state one can have when on too much caffeine. But I don't drink coffee or take any energy boosts.  I tried to reassure my husband that I am ok, but I can tell, that even for him there is no understanding in what's happening to me. I can only assume it is due to the energy being incredibly higher then it used to be. As if it's not enough, I also write and type my novel on almost no sleep, incapable of stopping. Something is amiss here and my body is not adapting very well to the change.

I feel I will need to find a way to cope with this, because whatever this is, it's not a fun part of the process. 

Meanwhile the abscess is still healing and I can barely feel it anymore. When I apply the poultice mentally,  it tingles a little and then I can forget about it for hours before I redo it. I almost bought the real ingredients for it instead of buying some food, out of fear, but something strong inside told me to believe, so I am going on blind faith here and trying to see where that will lead me. Mental suggestion is nothing new. Placebo effects either. Yet why aren't we using them more as a way to heal? We accept they are there and side effects of the real deal, but who really goes about to heal themselves with their mind first? Well maybe it doesn't work that good and so I will realize.

I have that deep feeling that Edgar Cayce is following my every steps and looking after me in some kind of way. I feel a deep need to humble myself and explore what I can do with a new outlook. A kinder outlook, deprived of self judgement and fear of what others could think. 

Finding a soul that could share his gift often doing it for free, liberates my heart of a burden I couldn't bear anymore. I have zero idea how I am going to live or survive in the long term of things, but I have the same vision I always had. Do it without artifice, out of kindness and love and I can almost feel, without knowing the how, that it could be possible, for the first time.