What are Angels?

It is very difficult to answer this question without eventually labeling them into something too small. Do angels have wings? Do they have numbers, like the new age school seems to believe? I don't know. It is not for me to label who or what they are. So many beliefs exist about them, who is to say which one is true? Certainly not me.

The best I can tell, from my humble, very small experience with Angels is that their true form seems to be pure energy, with no body, no gender, nothing human at all. This should not constitute any truth as I can only base this on my own experience. On the other hand, I have seen them take different forms to manifest themselves to people. By "see" I don't mean with my eyes, but inner perception. When they came to give messages to people or when I saw them be near someone while doing polarity, they would frequently take some kind of shape. They will talk like a woman or a man, look imposing or ethereal. They adjust to facilitate the connection so the person can feel them as their own vision. My angel used to come in the form of an ethereal female but changed appearance many times to fill my needs.

When an angel comes to me I feel it's presence first, it's energy. Sometimes they give a name, sometimes not. The best I can tell is that we have a varied number of them for different reasons seemingly in accordance to the kind of life we came to live (whether we call it destiny, vocation or mission).

The role of angels is to guide, love and protect. They have a deep understanding and knowledge of who we are deep down. They guide our lives with love, help recognize their language when they talk to us through premonition or gut feelings. I have been told many times that words are too imprecise for them to really say what they want and the language they prefer with us is through intuition and "coincidence" that are made by them to attract our attention.

In that regard, messages I give often come in times of emergencies. When they feel that words are all they have left to communicate with us.

To the best of my knowledge, their energy has not been incarnated either here or elsewhere. Their role doesn't seem to need it. Because they live in pure light and love they are amazing at helping us find back our origins and remind us of who we are really, make us connect again with our own divinity.

They are quite bad with time issue. They really don't seem to grasp that concept at all, so when they say anything that concerns time they see it in their world. They see where we are going and can be in peace saying that everything will be fine soon. But "soon" in their world is not our "soon". I had them say it would be "soon" for years and I can tell they are serious, that for them there is no concern and that the path we are taking is the right one to  get to our aspiration. They would repeat "soon" anyway because for them time is not linear. They see it differently and because the future is always in motion and changing, they adapt to it.

Predictions coming from them are far from being a gypsy divination. I used to hate predictions because I knew we don't understand what they mean by them. We try to fit them in a very small pot and distort them to accommodate our own knowledge of things. I used to forbid them to predict anything. I realize now it's not the prediction the problem it is how we go about to understanding it!

People frequently ask the wrong questions, including me, not because we are stupid, but because our world's view is very limited. I often feel like we are pre-schoolers in a vast world of spirits and that every complex issue has to be explained like we would to a child. Some issues we ask about are university degree kind of question for their world, but we don't have the words and maturity and experience yet to grasp what a complete answer would be like.

Once, I received a very complex and detailed way to heal with triangles. I was bad at geometry and this is all it was. So complex that my mind was blown away by the whole concept. I wrote the whole thing down the best I could, words and schematic, but even then, they had to adapt because my mind couldn't grasp what they were saying. Subsequently, as I had no idea what they meant, I had to be taught very simply with baby steps and words that I would understand. That technique is so powerful that one day I know I'll have to pass it along and find a way to teach it or explain it to people.

The more I delve into understanding them the more I feel extremely small, insignificant in that huge world they live in. I don't feel small because of low self-esteem, I feel small because I can tell that each question, each connection is a tiny spec of what that world is all about. To visit portions of their world, I had to have extended periods where my energy would go so high, I was barely in this world anymore. My head was spinning and all I could see or feel there was still so tiny before I couldn't take it anymore and had to go back.

I was living so much in resistance who is to say it wouldn't be different now when I feel able to accept that rush of energies again. Maybe I'll be able to bring more this time around.

Still I can tell that the mistake we make as human beings is to think that what we see is the truth, when it is our perception of the truth. I know some mediums seem to have a very clear idea on this matter. I don't know how they do it. Whatever I see or perceive is catered to my beliefs, culture, expectations. To connect for someone else, I need to put my own visions aside and connect to their world and get the visions for them of what fits and has meaning for them.

I feel like that weird sponge quality of mine, I didn't know what it was for all my life, is allowing me to  sponge people for a little, like a chameleon, get to feel how they see things, perceive things so my own visions and beliefs can be on snooze for a little and be as accurate as I can to give them a vision they need and not what I need.

This is still a very difficult thing to do. To relinquish control. It is different then a trance, but somehow there is a transformation happening so I can be as close to the person as I can. I don't feel ready yet to get back to that.

Again, I am aware how small my experience still is with that world, and that I don't have answers really. What I am sure of though is that who ever they are, the love they give is pure and unconditional. They have that motherly feel kind of love, being so close to us. This is probably one of the only constant they will have from one person to the next. The way they appear, what they mean to us, their religious aspect or not is all personal belief and will change all the time from person to person. The love will not. So maybe the only way to describe them accurately is to say they are pure love. The rest is up for us to make up our own mind on what they are and mean to us.