A new destination

On the 45th day of this journey, I am greatly grateful to have been able to share this path with the world. To open myself and face the fears.

In the last two days, I had to step back to breathe about this. Realize the progress. See that what I came to do here, I have accomplished. I have opened myself, I have felt the love and I have faith again.

I still have a lot of road ahead of me, but, as I knew without a doubt I had to come here in the first place, I also know, with the same certitude, that the rest of the path is a silent one, at least for now. One that needs introspection, time to explore and feel at my own rhythm what inhabits me.  It was quite difficult for me to realize this, as I grew fond to coming here. It is hard to see sometimes that what was good is no more, that the change is too great and that a new destination needs to be taken.

Starting a new journey is exiting. It is full of the unexpected. Very much like when I started this blog a month and a half ago. I am not in full awareness of what I can do, I am not done, I am still baking, but truly I am a reluctant medium no more. As I shed the resistances like a snake sheds its skin, as I get more liberated day by day, I know I can finally say goodbye to my old friends: Harsh Judgement, Need to Fit In and Jesus Complex (see Facing the demons boxing match style), as the line has to be drawn here. They could accompany me this far, but no further. I can only thank them for their clumsy ways. Kiss them farewell and take my train to my own destination where I am already accompanied by new friends, inside of me, who support me, love me and encourage me.

At the end of this first step, I have no recipes to offer. This path is merely my own. All I can hope is that it can encourage others who would be afraid too, to embark on their personal path and face their own fears so they can too find liberation, believe that no matter what the outcome is, they have a right to exist as who they are.

As for me, the path is not over yet, it just begun. And on the wings of this new love and faith, I can now feel flowing inside my body, I know it is time to leave this blog behind, close the door to the past and leave this nest I had built for myself to learn to fly again and connect.

We may cross path  again in the future. Who knows what is to come? After this time of solitude, deep in teachings, maybe I'll come back to share again.

So I do not bid you Adieu, but simply farewell, until then...

May your lives be filled with love and joy!


Edited August 4th, 2011:

I woke up this morning with a new blog idea all laid out for me: Musings of an apprentice Medium.
I still need time to rest and recuperate from such an intense journey, so I will go about starting this new blog later this month only.

So far, what I can tell, is that I won't write that blog as often as I used to when I came here, as not everything will be sharable. But I am looking forward to keeping a link to the outside world, and I feel this is what it could procure.

So keep in touch. I'll take this very slowly, as I really don't want to overdo it or please or feel people are waiting for me. I'll be back though, in my own time (smile).

Wave!